Rawr!~ XD

Morning!~
Thanks to everyone's comment in my chatbox!
I'm happy ^^ to know that I'm not alone.
But sadly I need to tell everyone that today, I'm feeling sad. I also feel that I'm lonely because now my life back to normal, instead past few days I had been with my family members all the time. It is just so weird for me now.
Thanks to no class today, I hope I can adjust my emotion....
Iiya iiya....stop it stop it.
Eto sou ne! I less log in MSN, because..I really dunno what to talk to people. Gomen.

All right, new topic. Ever wonder how my desktop looks like?
=D Here you go.

oops, listening to song ne XD
By the way, Kei-chan, I was listening Adam Lambert's song file you sent to me at that moment. XD
I changed almost all the icons into the stuff I like XD some are foods, cakes especially ^^, and jelly-type-creatures are from PSP's game [Locoroco] character. NDSL dun have it =( so sad. Lucky cats are there as well xD And last but not least, SS501 wallpaper lol!~ =D
And if you realized, right sidebar section of day past semester 3 thingy, yes.....I'm calculative in something I hate mostly =(

OKAY! that's all! What about you?
I want to know XD XD XD XD
maybe paste it in your blog? I'm curious =3
Suppose start my research for another essay,but lazy again. Actually I done my first essay....but still need to be refine. Guess I'll refine it later.

*runs around the house and back to blogging position*

XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I removed my ice cream phone's hp accessories and now it back to normal.
I'm still thinking of want to put cinnamoroll as accessories or not.
Maybe some suggestion?.....

Well?...heheh

XD XD XD besides, is white, it matches with my phone.
I need opinions.

Hmmm.....is 9.28am. Guess I'll continue my short research and continue to watch TV.
=( I feel I'm lifeless...so I decided not to touch college stuffs today....well maybe a lil because I still think college is evil.

Got it from funeral...
The worker gave us because there was very hot that day.
With a pink towel as well.

Yo

Hi everyone.
atatO desu.
LOL
I'm fine desu. Everything went okay. =)
What a relief...
The day to "send" her to heaven was this morning.
Thank god the sky so blue and sunny. We so afraid it would be rain.

She also was the first one to go too. Included with last night's coffin placement was in room number 1. Everything number 1 and ahead first. =)
Brother bought "handphone" and "radio" for her, wonder she know how to use it? LOL....

About me, today is the 3rd day I became full-time vegetarian.
I'm beginning to miss McD...A LOT!~
Nando's! BBQ Plaza! Spaghetti! T_T
Fries!~ YES! fries but wait, fries is made of potato...XD XD But buy the whole set is much more worth it so....TOMORROW! YES! I'm craving for it T_T

By the way, is ice cream consider..non-meat food?....

Just now watched [Boys over Flower] drama through Youtube.
Episode 11 and 12 because tomorrow might cannot make it to watch through KBS world channel.
We need to pick up grandma's bones...=)

And yay for me, Monday no class but essay =( hahahaha

.....

I didn't know that last monday was the last time I met her.

=(

around 4 hours ago, mom received a call saying that my grandma passed away.

lesson of life?

What makes human strong?
What makes human do not give up easily?
But..why some humans who are not like the above statement existed?
Why reality so so different and cruel ? (that's why people prefer fantasy)
hahahaha..
Why god created such scenarios to me?
All right I'm talking crap here.

I screwed myself up in class today(again).
I dun ever feel like forgiving myself.
Tomorrow's class from 12-6 again
=/ I hate semester 3.

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Was very stress today. But I had a lil time to flash back my past 'accidentally'.
Tears just came out like a water pipe. (my mascara just came off too and the stains on my clothes ahhahaha)
It shows that how rubbish I am now currently, compare to last time.
hahaha....
It was sucked, totally.
It's the best for not to think back of the past. That's what some ppl said.
But let me ask you a question, ...." Can you really able to control what's your mind is thinking?"

Some people just dun realised that....we just can force ourself to forget the sad things, not try not to think about the sad things.
=.=

Anyway...let's stop the sad statement here....
Yesterday was one of my classmate's birthday.
Some of them bought cupcakes with candles on top and gave to him.
We all sang happy birthday song to him though.hahaha
but classes until 6, was it a good birthday??? lol

I wish my birthday always weekend. I hate weekdays because..either no one knows or it just makes me want to skip class only. If weekend, I can be the queen of the day lol. To me, if your birthday is just a normal day means bad because it is a special day....lol...all right, I'm starting to confuse myself here.

Just done a proposal with my classmate, she was sick and absent for 2 days.
Got no choice but to discuss through msn, but I hope when we submit it, the lecturer approves it or else, my heart will cry again.
yeah, I know this situation is so normal for some people, but to me is not. Okay?
So now you know why I'm not fit to work yet? Because I'm not matured yet......blame me please. =p

PS: By the way, do you think I should change my name to Dinosaur? LOL

=.=

@Ms Aya: I wrote it in my diary as well....LOL But still feeling.....sad.

I think I wun update my blog for now until I'm feeling better.
=_= I dun really know what to do.
I'm blaming myself more than anything now.

In the meantime, I'll update my status on Twitter,Plurk and Facebook.

Till then

=/

Another emo post

The only one thing that I hate about myself is - I'm awake during my sleeping time.
*_*
For over 20 years and more I'm on this planet call Earth, I treasured my bed time the most.
Sleep can rejuvenate your body, it can makes you full of energy for the next day, and rest your brain (I guess?)

But now look what am I doing?
And now is already 3.02am.
Sunday.
T_T
I'm still awake. But seriously, this time I am not able to sleep!~
I slammed myself with mp3 songs, it just made me more energetic now.
=.=
Since I'm awake, I thought of continueing my research for writting group assignment.
But, I just dun have the mood for it. I dun have the damn mood for it.
..............
.......... I was very happy yesterday, went out meet Cindy, had a great dinner. What else I want?
Am I greedy that is why I'm sad without noticing??
Someone's life much worse than me. I should be feeling lucky that I have a great family members, good food, have laptop to play , can BLOG...and etc.... but I am just sad now.
I dunno why too, so dun ask me why I'm sad.

Am I too weak?
That's why I'm feeling that way?
If I'm strong....I would be sleeping right now. Not worrying over something that I dunno what am I worrying about.
=_=
...............
I dunno why I'm so emo(within my heart) now
To make me feel better, I closed the door, opens my window media player and sing along with the songs....but somehow, it makes me want to cry.
:_:

Shocked

One side of my friend told me that he is single.
Another side of my friend told me that he got a gf.
=_=

BLaaaaaaaaaaa
That's it, I dun want to care it anymore
I decided to lead my own way again once more!~
LOL
I'll continue to like Cinnamoroll,Yoshi and Yoshishi as usual.
And SS501
*sweats*

I know I'm not a healthy person =_=.............

My friend told me that Cinnamoroll available at 1u new wing.
I want to go there but =/ not enough money and dunno how to park the car there.
=.=
I guess save for the best tomorrow. Will meet my ex-collegemate tomorrow
I hope she can cheer me up hehehehe

To my friends, so sorry for emo and stupid posts for this week.
I'll make my blog alive back again as usual.

Ate something new

I ate something new yesterday. =D
But, the rice tastes like white rice.
I wonder what's the specialty in it.
Was it....its colour? hehehehehe
But it was delicious, and this meal can last me until tomorrow morning. (I skipped my dinner last night)
^^

Somehow, I am feeling better now compare to yesterday over that silly reason.
But, dunno why, I felt at a loss suddenly now.
=(
I hope I can find my new goal again soon.
I hope I can GET A LIFE!!!!!
URGH!

HAHA the result

Yo minnasan konbanwa.
Genki desuka?
Ban gohan tabetaka?

^^

WATASHI WA chotto na....

o.o Actually it is regarding to my [Angel & Mortal] game result.

My angel was a.................

female

LOL

Of course I'm disappointed. From here onwards you can say I'm desperate or whatever. I'm just telling the truth.
I mean it was not her fault. I'm really happy and lucky to have her as my angel. Other angels just gave them once or twice of sweets or nice words. But she gave me tissues mostly, and some sweets and biscuits. I'm lucky to have her! She was the best angel ever!
But what do you expect from me as a female? I'm just a normal human like everyone of you here.
When this kind of things around, I'm sure you would be thinking the same as me right?

Plus, I was hoping for him. Because thinked too much of him so ended up I'm feeling sucked now (towards myself) If I'm not into him, I'm sure this game will be ended with fun instead of self-created-disappointment. I admit is my fault.

I guess I must really get rid of my fantasies....my fairy tale dreams even something, a lil good thing happened to me....or something lucky just smacked on me. I must remain calm and forget about it. I must be MORE realistic from now on!!!!!!It was no one else's fault here...You see, I'm blaming myself. I'm referring to myself!

I'M SO STUPID!!!!!!!!

The moment lecturer announced the angel thing,I was stunned for a moment....and....since then I blurred...and speechless, but I cannot just change my mood suddenly, so when there's laughter I tried so HARD to laugh with them....I think that's why I'm feeling very tired today.

I'm selfish, I'm desperate, I'm idiot, I'm stupid...I FIND MYSELF SO STUPID!
You can just laugh at me if you are reading this post....
Coz I hope this entry can wake me up......from fantasy.

Emi, now you know why...on msn I just...weird.Sorry. I know this is ridiculous to you (maybe) but...I'm so sorry.

PS: by the way, another reason why I feel sad because he absent today.....

Who's my angel?

And.......
Who's my angel?
Wanna know?...........

My angel is................

???

Yes...is ???....
You know why?
BECAUSE LECTURER POSTPONED TO TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL WHAT THE!

new shoe! and bucket

Minna-san!!!!
I bought a new high-heel!!!!!
WHAT DO YOU THINK?!

Bought from night market, RM13
I love white colour, I dunno why hahahahha.
=p But I not yet start wearing it....coz I dun wear high heel often. And I still mind with the clocking sound while walking with it.
I guess I'll wear it during special days. ehehehehehe

Today's class was 3pm.
My mom bought me KFC as lunch. LOL
You know why?
Because of this HAHAHA

The Melody Meal thingy. She likes the music a lot.
But inserting batteries was a hard task for me =/
It was not me who inserted it though, it was my dad ha~
So cute! X3
I will show the video next time! HAHAHA The sound is lovely =D

Today's class was super bored.
And again, he absent. =/
nyuuuu...whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
But tomorrow he sure must go to college. Coz 9-6pm
X_X nyo.....hell starts tomorrow again. nyuuuuuuu
and OMG! Tomorrow is the day!!!
=/ I'm nervous,scared and blur
Because I suspect that my angel is not him
T_T
is someone else...
arghhh
I hope tomorrow is the most happiest day in my life PLEASE!~
Or else, I'll emo for the day.
T_T......
puuuuft!~

Tag /\ sore neck

ARGH My neck so pain.
Guess face my laptop too long +_+....

Just a lil update bout my love(i wonder) life?

Actually, in my heart, I suspected that my angel would be either 'him' or the other guy...let just label him 4 (HAHAHA wonder why I label him in number)
So I asked another guy just now about 4. (I was asking for assignment but then I remembered the angel and mortal game so...) He said that 4 probably not my angel.
If that's true, chances for 'him' is my angel increase to 60% XDDDDDD
"END"
okay...so *cough cough*
TAG! by Ms Aya.
XD
Here I go!
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Rules: Once you’ve got tagged, you have to answer ALL the questions HONESTLY. Lastly, choose 6 people to be tagged.

↓

How old were you when you had your first relationship?
I dun have first yet LOL

Are you single/taken?
Single. obviously with the 'him' issue LOL

Do you like anyone right now?
XD XD XD do I need to answer that?

Ever had your heartbroken?
YEAH! during secondary school. That was the most stupid guy I ever liked...=.= went to tell everyone that I like him ...and reject me issue too

Miss anyone right now?
yeah

Who was the last person you sent a text to?
Cayman (my college mate)

Last person to text you?
Cayman

Last person you saw?
Joanne (visited her blog just now lol)

What was the last thing you said to someone?
To mom in cantonese "I go back to my room." and " I dunno" LOL....

Who is your top friend(s)?
Seriously, I dun really know. If in real life it depends on where I am. Like in secondary school was different that 2 colleges I went + my current college. I guess is still online friend eventhough is not realistic compare to real friend.

Who do you trust the most in your life?
Mom and God. When I'm in trouble, they helped me a lot...A LOT. I dunno how to repay them...=( maybe many cycles of life. LOL

Who do you love most?
Family,yoshi & yoshishi, friends who love me back ^^

Ever been in love?
Real love nope. Infatuation I guess xD

Who has hurt you the most?
My previous college + a lecturer from dunno which college. ...I will never forget what they said or did to me. It just so emo....

Has a tragedy ever happened in your life?
Natural disaster nope. One of family member went to hospital by ambulance, yes. I got stitched by doctor before..does that consider?

Are you happy?
Yes I am beginnig to happy....and hope this coming Tuesday helps me to complete my happy process

How many good friends do you have?
dunno o.o...online friends...more than 10 XD

Are there some songs you cannot listen to because they remind you of someone?
Yes, there's one. Is a soundtrack from an anime. Piano version. When I listened to that, I will cry coz it full of my regrets and grudges on certain things.

Have you ever cheated on a partner?
me dun have partner yet XD

Ever been cheated on?
not sure O_O

Ever been told someone loved you?
family XD

Ever told someone you love them and meant it?
Family and some friends. hehehe

Not meant it?
Nope i guess.

What is your idea of true love?
Just love you and willing to sacrifice for you, doesn't care about your status or appearance. Most importantly, protects & love you.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
I do, but never happen before..yet.

Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love?
No, coz when timing is right, is love. There are no procedures for it.

I Tag:

Cassie! XD XD

Guess I will do it in otata.blogspot.com to tag more humans LOL
dewa dewa...minna oyasuminasai ^^

Digi cam,water,vows?

*BOO*

Last thursday....
I brought my own digi cam for photography class.
And I just simply took some pictures..LOL
From camwhore person transformed into stalker-to-be, I promise myself to bring my digi cam again starting monday to thursday =____=
These days, my insane level +10% LOL
A bit hyper than usual. lol....

XD XD Got bored during break, so just took it.
It's weird that, when you are in college or university, lecturer uses slides or white board + marker pens to teach you. But for government primary and secondary schools, teacher uses blackboard and chalks to teach. o.O.....hahaha

The one shot before from the first picture above XD XD XD
Next week is the last week for [Angel & Mortal] game.
fufufufu...I'm curious who's my angel but at the same time I'm scared. =_=
What happen if my angel is not him?..????
LOL......
I am scared to face this coming Tuesday now. And thanks to the tutorials, I will be staying in college from 9-6 like last week. =_= I'll be sick if something wrong happen on that day. So PLEASE!!! *prays* Everyone, please pray for me T_T
*cries*

All right all right! T_T....Actually, I miss him a bit.
And I hope can be with him....
That's the reason why I want so badly for him to be my angel.
LOL......

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OH! Do you know that from yesterday until tomorrow is Matta Fair at PWTC?
My bro + his gf and my sis are there now.
............I think you might be asking why I'm still here...LOL
Reason is....I hate crowded places. =_= And I dun really into Matta Fair, all will be clash with my college or exams =3=
Besides, goverment school holiday just BEGIN!!!!!!!
Traffic jam everywhere I dun want LOL
Stay at home better, I can take a nap, play DS XD XD XD XD
Okay, I'm suck. +_+

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To those who are staying at Kepong like me,
there's an announcement.
This coming Tuesday, from 10-4pm no water into the house.
So ....dun go market to prepare dinner on that day.
Just go out and eat hahahaha

Holy crap with blogger

This morning, I online and first thing I visited my site was my otata.blogspot.com
and WTH!~ The page can't be found!!!!!
O_O I was shocked, and I went here it was all right.
With strange expression, I signed in and I found out my otata blog was in grey colour while others still in black colour. I clicked the restore button.
Later, it explained to me that my blog been declare as a spam blog....
=_=
Either blogger is the one who thinked it was a spam blog
or someone reported my blog as a spam LOL
I guess I rant a lot on SS501 and changed the layout to SS501 as well so this happened?
LOL...
So Emi, that's the reason why as if I killed my otata.blogspot.com
I will checked on it once the blogger replies me.........
=_=...I find it stupid this happened to me.

Miss Aya, hmmm...maybe I add you in Facebook?
But I dunno what's your e-mail add or anything...=.=
or you add me instead?
chiba_kim@yahoo.com
=)

PS: What a good morning....today from Blogger T_T

My favourite for this month

Recently, I cannot really sleep during nights.
I am sleepy but I just cannot enter the dreamworld or sleepworld desu.
I wonder what happened....
=/
Instead, I feel sleepy during the day. =_= That is not good deshou?
uhuhuhuhuhu....

Not just only that, I been focus more on Korean pop these days.
Because of Korean version = Hana Yori Dango, [Boys Over Flower], I love SS501 now.
I added the link on the side bar, but you need to be the member to access.
I'll try to find other sites later XD

I love the story (eventhough is almost the same as manga's)
I love the soundtrack
I love the actor inside
I love Kim Hyun Joong <3
....and... I love [Lucky] by Ashily.
I tried to understand their romaji, it was difficult at first, but later, I find it okay LOL....
What do you think? XD

Ashily widget by 6L & Daxii

heeheh....
Class 12-3pm desu.
=/ boring....

International women's day

Today is international women's day.
My mom told me...LOL
Didn't know such day existed till this morning.....
So embarassing.... =/

Anyway, I switched on TV, nothing special broadcasted though.
Except for Channel V from Astro, there's a programme that showed only female artist's music videos. Majority were Pussycat Dolls's MV.
LMAO....
Nothing to watched till 12pm so I watched that.
12pm onwards, watched [Boys over Flower] from KBS channel.
XD XD Dang! Kim Hyuen Joong is so HOT!!!!~
I am falling for korean guys now =_=
I love their soundtrack as well, I downloaded right after I done watching it...
I wish I can buy the real DVD and re-watch the whole drama again!!! (eventhough KBS channel broadcasted till episode 6th)

OH!Sis gave me this as a gift...
She went to Penang with her collegues.
2 days 1 night

Keroppi!!!!!! XD XD XD CUTE huh?!
At first she gave me a grasshopper made of banana leaf.
I was so horrified with it =___= but still continue play with it until she gave me that
xD xD xD I like cute stuffs more.
Arigatou!!!!

And uhm...my last year photoshoot's are done.
So I'll just upload one here....

=X Check on my facebook for more then xD

And lastly...this is for Miss Aya.

I was like that on that day =/
HEHEHEHE

Random shot and wonder

LOL
Morning!!!
Eto...that was the rose I mentioned in my previous pic.
Is not that I want to show off, but I'm out off nice wallpaper for my phone so I decided to snap this rose and the lighting was nice =3

Come to think of it, of course is nice because is a fake rose. XD XD XD

@_@ I want to eat BBQ plaza....anyone want?
=x I'm addicted to it and I so so want to eat it again fufufufufu
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By the way...I wonder how was Reiki yesterday.....
=/
Daijoubu kana...interview.

Angel & Mortal.....game?

Do you know what is [Angel & Mortal] game?
It is a game where you are angel and mortal at the same time.
The purpose of this game is to be kind with your selected mortal by giving them gifts, wishes...anything that is good. You are not just an angel, but you are mortal at the same time coz other people will give you stuffs too ^^
Got the meaning of the game now?

So in class, we took a small piece of paper, write our own names and give to lecturer.
Lecturer shaked it in a box and asked us to pick out one. And that is your mortal.
I did my job already. But I dunno who's my angel though hahaha...

Anyway....

today, my lecturer gave me a rose.
He said is from my angel LOL....
HE SUPPOSE TO use that rose to played a trick to his mortal but he didn't use it.
Instead he gave it to me.
So I'm not sure now the rose if from him or really from my angel.
X_X
weird lecturer hahahaha....

is that atatO....??

みんな！こんばんはです！
おたたです！
(Translation:)
Minna! Konbanwa desu!
otata desu!

I am so LMAO desu!!!!
Please look at the picture below....

Can you imagine....this drawing drew by my lecturer
Yes is lecturer!! O_O Not classmates....
LOL
I am suprised desu...
That is me?
XD

woohoo! Next monday is a holiday!!!!!!!!
=D yeah!

uweeee

Tadaima!
Just back from classes. 12-6pm
so tired.
But when I compare with tomorrow...I wun feel tired at all for today because....
Tomorrow's classes begin from 9-6pm
YES! Is serious
T_T

Feeling like skipping one of the classes....
The main prob is that my mom drives and fetches me to and from college...
=_= It is bad to make a fake excuse in order to skip.
Ended up, I told my mom....about skipping...
Well...of course the answer is no. hahaha...am I silly or what?
XD

Today, my neck and my head aching a lot.
I remembered, if the back of your neck and your head aching at the same time,means you are suffering from stress.
LOL
And yeah, I think. My neck's pain is the same as last time whenever I'm worry.
Yes, I'm worry again.
=/
Bad o me....

oh yeah,....in a class today I created a character that symbolizes me.
XD Since I love to draw especially cute icons...why dun I draw a character of me instead?
So I decided to draw a whole week of me! and upload here on this coming sunday!!!!!
xD xD so there will be 7 chibi characters of me.
Must be fun fufufufufufufufu............
Okay...I got to go now.

Shower, dinner............. and....maybe research....
=_=
tata!