Rawr!~ XD

Morning!~
Thanks to everyone's comment in my chatbox!
I'm happy ^^ to know that I'm not alone.
But sadly I need to tell everyone that today, I'm feeling sad. I also feel that I'm lonely because now my life back to normal, instead past few days I had been with my family members all the time. It is just so weird for me now.
Thanks to no class today, I hope I can adjust my emotion....
Iiya iiya....stop it stop it.
Eto sou ne! I less log in MSN, because..I really dunno what to talk to people. Gomen.

All right, new topic. Ever wonder how my desktop looks like?
=D Here you go.

oops, listening to song ne XD
By the way, Kei-chan, I was listening Adam Lambert's song file you sent to me at that moment. XD
I changed almost all the icons into the stuff I like XD some are foods, cakes especially ^^, and jelly-type-creatures are from PSP's game [Locoroco] character. NDSL dun have it =( so sad. Lucky cats are there as well xD And last but not least, SS501 wallpaper lol!~ =D
And if you realized, right sidebar section of day past semester 3 thingy, yes.....I'm calculative in something I hate mostly =(

OKAY! that's all! What about you?
I want to know XD XD XD XD
maybe paste it in your blog? I'm curious =3
Suppose start my research for another essay,but lazy again. Actually I done my first essay....but still need to be refine. Guess I'll refine it later.

*runs around the house and back to blogging position*

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I removed my ice cream phone's hp accessories and now it back to normal.
I'm still thinking of want to put cinnamoroll as accessories or not.
Maybe some suggestion?.....

Well?...heheh

XD XD XD besides, is white, it matches with my phone.
I need opinions.

Hmmm.....is 9.28am. Guess I'll continue my short research and continue to watch TV.
=( I feel I'm lifeless...so I decided not to touch college stuffs today....well maybe a lil because I still think college is evil.

Got it from funeral...
The worker gave us because there was very hot that day.
With a pink towel as well.

Yo

Hi everyone.
atatO desu.
LOL
I'm fine desu. Everything went okay. =)
What a relief...
The day to "send" her to heaven was this morning.
Thank god the sky so blue and sunny. We so afraid it would be rain.

She also was the first one to go too. Included with last night's coffin placement was in room number 1. Everything number 1 and ahead first. =)
Brother bought "handphone" and "radio" for her, wonder she know how to use it? LOL....

About me, today is the 3rd day I became full-time vegetarian.
I'm beginning to miss McD...A LOT!~
Nando's! BBQ Plaza! Spaghetti! T_T
Fries!~ YES! fries but wait, fries is made of potato...XD XD But buy the whole set is much more worth it so....TOMORROW! YES! I'm craving for it T_T

By the way, is ice cream consider..non-meat food?....

Just now watched [Boys over Flower] drama through Youtube.
Episode 11 and 12 because tomorrow might cannot make it to watch through KBS world channel.
We need to pick up grandma's bones...=)

And yay for me, Monday no class but essay =( hahahaha

.....

I didn't know that last monday was the last time I met her.

=(

around 4 hours ago, mom received a call saying that my grandma passed away.

lesson of life?

What makes human strong?
What makes human do not give up easily?
But..why some humans who are not like the above statement existed?
Why reality so so different and cruel ? (that's why people prefer fantasy)
hahahaha..
Why god created such scenarios to me?
All right I'm talking crap here.

I screwed myself up in class today(again).
I dun ever feel like forgiving myself.
Tomorrow's class from 12-6 again
=/ I hate semester 3.

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Was very stress today. But I had a lil time to flash back my past 'accidentally'.
Tears just came out like a water pipe. (my mascara just came off too and the stains on my clothes ahhahaha)
It shows that how rubbish I am now currently, compare to last time.
hahaha....
It was sucked, totally.
It's the best for not to think back of the past. That's what some ppl said.
But let me ask you a question, ...." Can you really able to control what's your mind is thinking?"

Some people just dun realised that....we just can force ourself to forget the sad things, not try not to think about the sad things.
=.=

Anyway...let's stop the sad statement here....
Yesterday was one of my classmate's birthday.
Some of them bought cupcakes with candles on top and gave to him.
We all sang happy birthday song to him though.hahaha
but classes until 6, was it a good birthday??? lol

I wish my birthday always weekend. I hate weekdays because..either no one knows or it just makes me want to skip class only. If weekend, I can be the queen of the day lol. To me, if your birthday is just a normal day means bad because it is a special day....lol...all right, I'm starting to confuse myself here.

Just done a proposal with my classmate, she was sick and absent for 2 days.
Got no choice but to discuss through msn, but I hope when we submit it, the lecturer approves it or else, my heart will cry again.
yeah, I know this situation is so normal for some people, but to me is not. Okay?
So now you know why I'm not fit to work yet? Because I'm not matured yet......blame me please. =p

PS: By the way, do you think I should change my name to Dinosaur? LOL

=.=

@Ms Aya: I wrote it in my diary as well....LOL But still feeling.....sad.

I think I wun update my blog for now until I'm feeling better.
=_= I dun really know what to do.
I'm blaming myself more than anything now.

In the meantime, I'll update my status on Twitter,Plurk and Facebook.

Till then

=/

Another emo post

The only one thing that I hate about myself is - I'm awake during my sleeping time.
*_*
For over 20 years and more I'm on this planet call Earth, I treasured my bed time the most.
Sleep can rejuvenate your body, it can makes you full of energy for the next day, and rest your brain (I guess?)

But now look what am I doing?
And now is already 3.02am.
Sunday.
T_T
I'm still awake. But seriously, this time I am not able to sleep!~
I slammed myself with mp3 songs, it just made me more energetic now.
=.=
Since I'm awake, I thought of continueing my research for writting group assignment.
But, I just dun have the mood for it. I dun have the damn mood for it.
..............
.......... I was very happy yesterday, went out meet Cindy, had a great dinner. What else I want?
Am I greedy that is why I'm sad without noticing??
Someone's life much worse than me. I should be feeling lucky that I have a great family members, good food, have laptop to play , can BLOG...and etc.... but I am just sad now.
I dunno why too, so dun ask me why I'm sad.

Am I too weak?
That's why I'm feeling that way?
If I'm strong....I would be sleeping right now. Not worrying over something that I dunno what am I worrying about.
=_=
...............
I dunno why I'm so emo(within my heart) now
To make me feel better, I closed the door, opens my window media player and sing along with the songs....but somehow, it makes me want to cry.
:_:

Shocked

One side of my friend told me that he is single.
Another side of my friend told me that he got a gf.
=_=

BLaaaaaaaaaaa
That's it, I dun want to care it anymore
I decided to lead my own way again once more!~
LOL
I'll continue to like Cinnamoroll,Yoshi and Yoshishi as usual.
And SS501
*sweats*

I know I'm not a healthy person =_=.............

My friend told me that Cinnamoroll available at 1u new wing.
I want to go there but =/ not enough money and dunno how to park the car there.
=.=
I guess save for the best tomorrow. Will meet my ex-collegemate tomorrow
I hope she can cheer me up hehehehe

To my friends, so sorry for emo and stupid posts for this week.
I'll make my blog alive back again as usual.